“The Latter”


               How are you? I’m not fine.
Why?  Yes I’m not. I don’t know why? I asked all the things from god but forgotten to ask the most important & necessary thing that is Happiness. 
I’ll be having everything but still I’m not happy. I met many peoples but still didn’t find anyone beautiful ….

The word beautiful doesn’t mean good looks,  good personality, etc. For me.. Beautiful is the person who has the beautiful heart.. People tell me that money ruins the people but i think money is not important. 
I’ll prefer to live in a hut with a beautiful person rather than living in a palace.
I don’t want anything in my life. I’m happy & thankful to god for whatever i have. But still i want is happiness .. I’m still unhappy.
     Friends, Family etc.. yes .. thay are important but thay leads to expectations & expectations always hurts….
    Yes, i do.. yes i miss my school days .. know why? Because i was a real me… No Tension, No worries,  No Limitations & No Fear of anything .. Expect Results… Lol …
Uff … those results.. But Now….
       i have everything but still wanted that days back in which i can live my whole life.. when we are not matured.  We always wanted everything Vehicles, Smartphone, High-speed Internet, Cloths etc.. There was a day when we are apart far from those things but still we are happy. But now i have everything but i still miss my that cycle .. who was my breather shit… Ohh silly me..
I use to tie a rakhi on it on the day of Rakshabandhan & he always acted like my partner. But now it is sitting in a corner with full of dust but still i love it..
        I miss the way i & my best friend riya use to be. The way from home to Maggie ( My Classes ) the way we use to sit in a trample near Maggie … the way we use to study outside Maggie when we was having test..
          I love the ways riya use to fight for me when someone hurts me.. Ohhh .. and our picnic were awesome, Annual Day, Anchoring in annual days, dancing and how can i forget that Hindi lectures. The way we use to eat anything in class.. and my mischievous nature.. my ma’am always use to telltell that,” I’m a very naught but innocent girl” .
      I lived my whole life in that 1 year friends were important but miss that friends because we were friends without any reason .. but here i saw that everyone is mean.. but still i do survive. Because i have those memorys in my heart.
     Please give me those days back just for once. I promise I’ll give u my whole life after that one year. I’ll die with no complaints .. I’ll die happily ..

Yours lovingly,
……… may be Sheila ..